Stir Crazy / by Kelsey Hamaguchi

It has been quite some time since I've updated my blog again. I've basically been working and binge watching Dexter on Netflix. I feel so discouraged and stuck right now. Everyone is pestering me about finding a real job, and it's just really frustrating. It's as though they all think I'm not trying. I obviously don't want to end up being a dead beat stuck at a dead end job for the rest of my life. I didn't just waste my entire life going to school to throw it all away. I may not be the smartest, but I'll work damn hard for what I want. It's just taking me a bit longer than I would have hoped. My main priority right now is getting a car, but there's just so much negativity when it comes to the subject with my parents. Being home in general has just given me so much negative energy, which I noticed is extremely elevated whenever I'm home. Unfortunately for me, I'm here indefinitely. I keep toying with the idea of finding a job in another state and leaving, but there's still that part of me that's not quite ready to leave yet. Hell, it has been just under two months since I've graduated. I know time passes and those weeks spent without a job turns into months, which in return turns into years. I like to think I have my head on straight, but there are just too many people who are doubting me, sugar coating it to sound like they believe in me. I don't even know anymore...I just need to figure out what I'm trying to do at this part, cause every day that passes I get more and more stir crazy. If I can just take baby steps and get a car, I feel that my life would be a lot easier and I'd finally have that taste of freedom that has been taken away from me.

Anyway, enough with my boring life rants. Below are some edits from Paris and The Roman Baths. The editing is all over the place since it took place over the span of a few days and with the edits, I've been indecisive and unsure of myself.