Cause I've been going crazy I don't wanna waste another minute here / by Kelsey Hamaguchi

No photo edits for today, just a few screen shots of what I've been working on last night and all day today. Helping out Rowena with this typography graphic (: Decided to do use the sign language for "I love you" since this is for her anniversary. Took a photo of my hand, put it in black and white and roughly cut it out. The second photo is what I have finished as far as the actual typography itself goes. I forgot how tedious of a process this is. I really hope this turns out well and she likes it! I've never really done anything for anyone other than myself or class projects. Haha. Probably not going to do a post tomorrow since I'll be out all day. Actually, scratch that, I'll probably have some time to at least edit a few photos and get them up on here. I'm feeling so discouraged lately. I've been home doing nothing pretty much every day. I haven't heard back from any of the jobs I've applied for, and I'm barely getting any shifts at work. I'm restless and unless I take the bus, I'm stranded at home. I feel so trapped. Once I'm home, I lose all freedom, which sucks. I start to get treated like I'm ten, and I go from being able to do what I want, when I want to not being able to even leave the house. The most I can do is go for a run outside, but that's about it. This is my fault for coming home and the more that I think about it, I really should've just found a job or intern before graduation in the city or on the west coast. Idk how I would've been able to afford an apartment, but I would've figured it out. At this point, anything would be better than the place I'm in. I need to realise that people don't change if they have been living the same way for so long. I'm just fooling myself and putting myself through unnecessary torture. I am responsible for the unhappiness I feel, and I need to change that by practicing what I preach. You are in charge of your own happiness. You and only you can control your actions and who you interact with. I need to remember that. I need to stop believing I deserve to be unhappy. I probably shouldn't be blogging this boring personal stuff here, so I'm sorry. I'm going to do my best to refrain from now on. 

Okay, this post looked far too sad without photos, so here are some random photos from when I was messing around during one of my levitation shoots. Some funny outtakes with bad form and a makeshift sheet taped to my closet door. Haha, enjoy.